Today I had my second OB-GYN appointment and I was thrilled to pieces that I was going to hear my baby’s heartbeat for the first time. I was a little bummed that my husband was traveling on business, so I decided to record the sound of the baby’s heartbeat using my Flip Cam so he could hear it later. I wasn’t sure if the doc would have issues with me wanting to record this, but she had no problem with it, so I dug into my purse and pulled out my Flip and laid back into position so the little fetal Doppler could do its job. Well, of course I turned the Flip on and it says CAMCORDER FULL! NO, not now!! The doctor has already started and I can hear a static-y sound but I’m too busy fiddling with my video cam to pay attention. Finally, after what seemed like a minute I figured out how to delete another vid so I could record what was happening at that very moment. And there it was…the heartbeat, beating very fast.
Take a listen in the below vid. First of all, the doctor tells me that my heartbeat is the lower one while the baby’s is two times as fast, and immediately after she says this I ask which one is mine! But you have to realize that when you’re in this sitch you’ve got a lot of thoughts running through your head, and being a good listener is not a skill you possess at the moment! Also, sorry about the view…
Ahh…confirmation! There IS something in there!!! Yes, I know I’ve already had an ultrasound at 10 weeks, but as weeks go by and nothing new develops as a result of your pregnancy, you start to wonder if everything is ok down there. And even though I know that little heartbeat is happening inside of me, it’s still so surreal. I feel like it will REALLY feel real when I have my 20-week ultrasound with that super 3-D technology where you can really see a baby in there and it actually looks like a baby this time and not an alien like at 10 weeks!
The false advertising about pregnancy, or, the lie I always believed…
You’d think a growing belly would be a clear indication that a baby is in there, but for me it’s not. Because for some reason I just think it’s me getting fat. Everything I read tells me to start talking to my belly and rubbing it or having my husband sing to it (HA!), but I can’t help but feel a little silly about that. I mean, I want to and will soon I’m sure, but for now, I just feel like a chunky monkey rubbing my chub, not my baby. When will I start thinking of it as a baby in my stomach and not a just chocolate chip bagel? I guess when it’s hard and not soft!
Speaking of weight gain, I have a confession…I’ve gained more than I’m supposed to in the first trimester. You’re supposed to gain between 2-5 lbs and since my last appointment 4 weeks ago, I’ve gained 7 lbs! And I’m pretty sure I had gained a few lbs before that 10-week appointment took place too! Look girls, getting preggo during the holidays is a bad idea! You’re over-indulging because you believed the lie. You thought you were eating for two. You thought you could hang up your running shoes and just walk on the treadmill. You thought you could eat pies and popcorn and pizza because you’re no longer binge drinking on the weekends and it all evens out anyway, right? WRONG! As it turns out, I have to watch my diet even MORE now that I’m pregnant!
I mean, I’m already eating way more health consciously than I ever have. During the day I eat things like oatmeal, apples, grapes, salads, cottage cheese, and carrots!! Sure, I might have a normal dinner and a handful of Oreos at night, but it’s not like I’m eating like a freagin’ cow or anything!! Ok, so on the weekends I’m less mindful when I go out to eat and stuff, but this is no diff than how I was pre-pregnancy. So why am I gaining so much?? Well, for one, my work outs are really low impact compared to what they once were. Hey, I ran a half marathon in November (while I was 5 weeks preggo!), so for months I’d been training 6 days a week. When you go from that kind of activity to walking on an incline on the treadmill or reading a mag on the stationary bike you better believe your body isn’t kidding itself thinking this is burning any real calories. Who made up this whole “eating for two” B.S. anyway? Apparently, you only need to eat 300 more calories per day for your baby.
My doctor told me she’s not worried about my weight gain, but she said at 20 weeks it’s normal to have gained about 10 lbs in total. WHAT! So I gained 7 lbs in 4 weeks, yet I can only gain 3 more in the next 6 – when I should be getting noticeably bigger?? Oh how the hell am I going to manage this? I need to go on a diet! At a time when I should be basking in my pregnancy, vain girl over here is drowning in body image issues and fear of not falling into the “normal range.”
So I guess eating whatever you want and taking it easy at the gym during pregnancy is a giant crock of baby poo. The irony that I have to eat better than I ever have while I get bigger than I ever have is not lost on me. *Rolls eyes* Pass me some carrots please.
Please tell me some of you gained more than the “normal” range!?